Wtf?

I havent been blogging for quite a while maybe cause I don't have time cause of so many internals and exams. I'm gonna start from rants, ive been trying my best to hold it in but "even nice people have their limits" a photo I found on tumblr and it is true.
1.Rant- the more you push someone to do something the more they won't. That applies to me if you keep telling me that I have no hope just cause I don't study then I will in fact show you I have no hope and if I fail life I'll thank you's for never trying to encourage to study but instead everyday discriminating me and stepping me down thinking that will make me feel shame and I will start studying. You know what? I already told you it doesn't fucking work on me and don't think that oh if you study hard as you will get a good job. If your study is good but your fucking cocky as fuck then even the boss will kick you the fuck out. Your not the smartest there's people way smarter but less cocky and are humble and doesn't look down on people, just wait till that one day you might lose everything the fuck you have.
2.Rant- okay. You tell me to study I do. I said I'm going to the library your the one that don't believe me. You laugh at me and think I'm bullshitting. You say that you can't believe me cause why? Why don't you believe me? You kept telling me to study now I am but you don't fucking believe me then what the mother of FCK do you want me to fucking do? I study you don't believe me I don't you stand me down. Bro? I have feelings just because I never have emotions and always smile doesn't mean that I actually don't feel any pain that like a knife cutting you slowly. Please just give me a break and let me do what I want when I'm ready. Your not me, you don't know what I know nor what I think nor, what I have organized for myself. I insanely please you to stop giving me shit when your the people that are suppose to help and comfort me instead of me trying to find comfort and courage from my school teachers or friends.

Leaving 'Lunch'

i woke up at 9 today cause its chelseas leaving lunch and we decided to bus to town at like 1030, SO i prepared myself and all that just in time BUT one of my friend just finished showere like 10 minutes before the bus arrives so instead of busing to town, i had to wait at botany for them 2-_-. ANYWAY after we got to town we went to this restaurant called EIGHT in this 5 star hotel it was SO good but i expected better for $50 meh. After eating there for like 2 hours all 3 of us were so freken full which then we walked around city for like 4 hours, we did some shopping l0l.. we didnt even eat dinner. so i only had one huge meal today but it was alright .........


then we went to Krave fellowship but they changed the name to Connect..... mmm,, anyway it was fun we played a game called articulate(i think o.o) it was like charade but you can talk, MY GROUP WON MWAHAHA. and then we talked about things we value in our lives and our morals etc. very interesting ;D i pretty like this fellowship, HAHA.. 

me and chelsea

All the food i ate. plus 3scoops of icecream
FATASS,