Backstabbing(?)

Recently theres been drama going on about this 'talking shit' and its seriously so stupid, like if you want to talk shit about someone, just tell them to the face, if you dont, it just means you still want to be friends with them or your still buying their actions or person in general.

Second thing i find hurtful about this is, its actually better if you tell them with your OWN mouth. Why? because its less hurtful and its telling them the truth. Okay, maybe some people cant handle it, but its better than being lied to and have other people telling you.

That feeling you get, when people tell you that someone said shit about you when you guys are only like, what, acquaintances? or just neutral friends with them, is actually soo fucking shit. like wtf bro? how many times have i talked to you? do i even know you? ACTUALLY, do YOU EVEN FUCKING KNOW ENOUGH ABOUT ME TO TALK SHIT? wow. if you didnt like me, you can tell me f2f, im the type of person that can handle it, and i actually listen. Dont fucking act nice in front of me and talk shit behind me, i fucken hate that, like i actually seriously hate that.

I will find out no matter what. And plus, why DONT you tell me face to face? are you scared? or do you still want to stay neutral friends? if so, then its so stupid how you would bitch about me. Omg, Seriously im so disappointed, i never knew you were like this, i always thought you were nice, maybe you think your all cool now cause you do 'your' shit. but bro, dont mess with the wrong person, so what if im a girl? i dont need anyone to back up for me, because ive already came to a moral that when you get into deep shit, no one will help you anyway and plus, not everyone has time for peoples shit unless you have no life, and even if you bring people to smash me, do you think i give 2 fucks? i dont even care if i will live or not, you mud. Im fucking YOLO-ing for the sake of standing up for myself.

I honestly hate backstabbers, if you have shit to say about me, its better to tell me f2f incase i find out. and i will NOT give a. C.R.A.P WHO WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE.

Happy happy.

WELL as everyone knows(well not everyone) my birthday is on the 19/02.
On Saturday, there was a 50% off at Manukau TEMT, so I got women up at 730 in the morning from Kate song and went to manix at like 930. I brought 3 pieces of clothes, a skirt, overall and a shirt ONLY $43 omg. Yea, anyway after that we went town and I sat in Kates shop for 5 hours not doing shit but watching stuff.. And then Kenneth, John, Aimee, Teresa and Kelvin came after to eat dinner together! We had jap at this place called mentaz it's so cheap omg and you can legit share a 'don' between 2 people. THEN we had like a fun chat and then I went home:p

TODAY I went to church and then went to go see Charles before he leaves and also he surprisedly gave me my birthday present and I(on behalf of 1/10 of botany) gave him a present hehe and we took the MOST awkwardest Polaroid photo LOL. After that I went to Danielles house for a massive feed. Omg was so full like seriously I thought my stomach was going to rip.
AND THAT WAS my subtlety planned sweet 16. I know, everyone thinks sweet 16 has to be celebrated rebelliously but no, I can also have cute/funny/unforgettable memories/moments from these very simple and plain things, Because they say 'Simple is the best.' =]

Chinese New Year smd.

Omg today's been probably the worst day for me, I woke up at 9 for church and then couldn't find food, and then the bus came late, and I had to walk with a blister and it was so fucking hot and then the worst thing is my maths tutor. Honest to fucking shit, I stayed there for 3 fucking hours, pretty much spent one hour playing on my fucking phone when my tutor was talking to her other class and I had to wait and she didn't even have a fan, i was like in a fucking oven. And the kids were year 8s and I just wanted to punch them in the face cause they were so fucking annoying.
When my mom came, I was just letting out my anger to her and she fucking says 'why didn't you tell the teacher in her face, you can't do anything about it now.' its like, BRO ARE YOU SERIOUS?? LET ME FUCKING RAGE ABIT? OKAY Fine. Since your being a faggot ill chose to rage to my friend. And wtf does she say? 'Bro just kick back-.- not a big deal hahaha cheer up bro!!' STOP TELLING ME TO KICK BACK, IM NOT EXPECTING YOU TO SAY ANYTHING. YOU CAN JUST REPLY 'lol haha shame' or something. FUCKING EVERY TIME I LET MY SHIT OUT TO YOU, you tell me to 'kick back' HONESTLY stop saying those 2 words, like no fucking shit, it's so fucking annoying. It's not like you don't fucking rage, do I be like 'hahaha kick back not a big deal' ??? NO. I JUST FUCKING LISTEN, CAUSE I KNOW WHEN PEOPLE ARE IN RAGE QUIT MOMENTS, THEY JUST WANT PEOPLE TO LISTEN TO THEM WITHOUT ANYONE GIVING ANY FUCKED UP ADVICES.
SO I thought of my blog. And thank you peoples, who are reading this.

SHIT. THAT WAS A GOOD RAGE WITH NO RESPONSES.

2013?

WELL, its a new year hope this year would be better.
OKAY SO.. ill start of with some goals and then end with some poops.

1.Lose weight, exercise whatever.
2.Keep in touch with God.
3.Good marks. Study Good.
4.Find a good part time job.
5. KEEP MY IPHONE5 SAFE==\
6.Be a better(in every way) person
all i can think of now--.

rages, omg best topic to share with people.

NUMBER ONE.
this isnt really a rant but just want to say, just cause i only JUST told you one of my friends gives me good feedbacks and i always talk to her when i have shit because she is different to others because she alllllllllllways say that i was wrong to do whatever instead of agreeing with me all the time(like what most people do) when im shitting about stuff, doesnt mean that you can take her place, please dont try and be like her because i can tell and no, people reading this, its not you because youll never know who im thinking of so dont think oh was it me, just be normal. please. (this might not make sense but yea whatever, cbb with grammer)
NUMBER TWO.
everyone has a different opinion, okay. eg a same object or person whatever, someone can say oh their pretty AT THE SAME TIME the other may say ew so ugly, no need to explain more, clear enough to  understand, i hope.

okay all i can think of, so much swearing sorry-- its cause im raging(might not even make sense). JUST TO SAY, its raging so random stuff would be said too so uhh yea.

SEE YOU IN NEXT BLOG TOO LATE TO THINK ATM==

Just.. wow.

Its been another year already...

LOL JK.

OKAY ITS 2013, well to ME 2013 started when i just arrived in NZ. Why? because my trip overseas was kinda shit not going to say why here cause its public HAHA. Anyway but yea i did some shopping etc, okay get to the point.

LAST YEAR,
2012 was, i would say one of my shittiest year NOT SAYING YOU GUYS== just some personal problems. Yes i did, i did gain weight, HEAPS because i was staying in another family and omg i just wish i can go back to the start of 2012 and restart it but i cant so i guess im going to start LEGIT losing weight this year. I KNOW I KNOW ive been saying that but no actions but nah i will this year like no shit cause my overseas family was complaining about ive gone so fucking fat like not a little like freken heaps. watever.
NEXT TOPIC.
- 2012 made me gain quite a few friends and they are CLOSE FRIENDS(you know who you are) not one minute(sarcasm but you get the point) friends, i can talk to them etc blahblah not going to say heaps cause by this point if you dont know what close friends actually mean then you probably dont have any lol, you should go make some then because they are priceless, i would take a bullet for them.
- what else... oh and i kinda learnt alot of stuff last year, ACTually, this year i cant say its the shittiest because i became close with God that was one thing that kept me surviving from all the shit i got.
- Also, heaps of memories and photos on facebook. OH AND OMFG. THE MOST GAYEST THING, I LOST MY IPHONE== LOST ALL MY PHOTOS omg.. dont- sigh.--
- pretty much all the memories are blogged already HA....

OKAY I KNOW THIS IS THE BORINGEST BLOG EVER just a summary of 2012. ill write another one now..

Decision.

So as you all know, i am banned from LoL FOR THE 4TH TIME. and this time its up to the 9th of December when im in CHINA == whats the point. omfg this sucks.
But in a way its like trying to say Judy go back to your drama life, gaming is not for you. SO i have decided to stop gaming and start going back to my old life where its drama and being sad and forever alone. I thought gaming would help me step out of misery but now it seems like its not working, so screw me. i should just dig a hole and die :D

HAHA ok todays verse is.............

Psalm 16:5 "Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure."

I have a story behind this verse, and that was actually the verse that made me become a real christian which was like few years ago haha.
I was watching T.V one day and i lost the remote control. FUNNY HAHAHA HAPPENS TO EVERYONE but i couldnt find it like legit i like chucked all the pillows up and i went into the sofa and i just literally went through any gap i could see, not just the ones i could see even the ones i cant.. JUST EVERYWHERE LIKE NO SHIT and then i was like OMG THAT VERSE (i forgot who told me this verse but yea) so i was repeating that verse to myself numerous of times, in chinese and english and then i lifted up that cushion and it was right there. I saw it and i was like . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I SWEAR TO MY SOUL I HAVE LOOKED HERE BEFORE LIKE I SWEAR ON MY LIFE I SWEAR ON ANYTHING I HAVE LOOKED HERE ALREADY WTH AND ITS LIKE lying there LIKE WTH. I was freken shocked like i was speechless and then from then on whenever i lose stuff i read that verse out to myself like 100 times and its just there, like its right in your face. Its amazing, im not trying to say use this verse when you lose something, and no, dont use Gods word when you only need him for something.

OKAY BYE GUYSSSSSSS

Last hang out day (?)

HEYYYYSS! So today i woke up really tired because i didnt have a really good sleep last night, i went to bed at 1130 with sadness because its like when you try your best to catch up with people because your leaving and you just want photos and like memories, people seem to bail on you and its like they dont care but they always be like omg dont leave etc etc. Hello, im a really realistic person, those dont hit me lol. Oh yea even though they bailed, i had other friends which i consider good friends here now because they lightened my day.

SO what did i do today... I went to church in the morning and then waited for Josh to take me to mission heights to meet my friends, on the way i went to buy ice cream hehehe and then we had a talk on the car. He was like what time you leaving? ill send you off and im like oh,, nah dont need to send me off anymore lol. (because ive previously asked) and hes like why? ----- will come anyway and im like lol no point if you dont really care, and plus its not like im not coming back ha. and hes like oh okay..
That talk just got me cause i know how my other friend felt when he left too and when people just kept bailing so i felt even bad. But you start to see what the word 'care' actually mean aye.
Anyway, after i got to mission heights i met my friends and made a new friend :D and then we went to friends house, bummed around abit and then went to botany to watch a movie and eat, i watched skyfall today! it was sooooo gooooood omg so cooooool but yea i wanted to take a photo with them but couldnt find a good time to ask, damn. BUT algoods ill see them next year :D ended pretty good even though the weather was shit. Btw the person who bailed, your lucky the weather was shit today aye otherwise i guess ill be pretty ticked off not able to go beach.

okay well NO PHOTOS T_T why?

BECAUSE NO PHONE OMFG. okay well, im gonna start ending my blogs with a bible verse from now on. TODAYS ONE IS............

Romans 12:21 "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."