Ranting bout the same shit.

It's always the same situation, why is it always the people that are abit overweight always get mocked at and laughed at and they turn into an subject for people to talk about as something funny.
I'm fucking sorry that I'm fat and not skinny like all the other people. Did I ask for to be created so fat? No.
What fun do you get out of it? Yea sure YOU think it's funny but have you thought of other peoples feelings?
"well I'm not fat ahahahha" you should be happy and gratefull that your blessed, becareful one day that blessing gets taken away from you. Then it will be your turn to cry and moan. Don't always wait till the last minute to realize what you fucking have.
Why do people change the way they look? Its because of the people that always mock them and in order to stop them from mocking them they change the way they look, either by surgery for small eyes or not eat and fuck up their body system just to impress others and stop people from calling them fat.
When I go on a diet people say I'm only 15 I don't need to go on a diet and that I'll lose protein and I'll be unhealthy and unable to grow. When I start eating they start saying and mocking that omg your so fat. What the fuck do you want me to do? I'll just go die. yea?
Ungrateful people.
I WILL BE SKINNY. just not now.

Lately

Sigh its been a long time since i updated. Ive been going through the phase of antisocialness
hmmmm well ive been sick for the whole week and i stayed home the whole week :D anyway i want to update my blog so i asked for ideas


THOUGHTS.

hmmm i think that our generation is going too quick.. like we do things or think about things that are like waaaaay too ahead of us. like working or social or watever idk. were going to work for our whole adult life and it will eventually become a drudgery for us, why do people want to work so young?? i only want to for fun HAHA nah. but im not allowed so GUTS. anyway. and um i try to control myself and tell myself that im only 15 and i still have plenty of time to play but its so hard.. WHY is it so HARD to control. i think its cause of the people around me l0l. i chopped my hair cause i wanted to stop caring about my looks cause its too hard to impress people now. im looking forward to uni so  bad, cause idk.. i meet more and new people i guess? hmmm argh SO mixed thoughts.. i think i think too much too. im such a loner now, no one believes me but i actually am. i stay home every weekend not like last year and 2010 anymore lol. i remember i used to go out like every weekend till like midnight and think i was cool as, but now when i think back its like so stupid and the generations are getting worst(?) and worse(?) in my opinion. they are getting more rude and annoying and bitchy and slutty  and i hate it when people younger than me look freaking10 years older than me. sometimes i still miss the parties and the fun... im so lonely :( and i want to be friends with certain peoples but i just CANT cause i try to but when im with them and they do that thing i just lose it i really really want to argh asdkfj;lkjgds.

HATES.

i dont hate anyone now since i have been so anti social lol. but um i think people starting to hate me so sad so sad. i seriously dont hate anyone if i rage about someone i only think their annoying i DONT HATE ==

TO DO's

i need to save up money to buy stuff, im going to go shopping in the holidays and i really want a pair of darn vans and raybans!. so sad going shopping by myself sigh.. and i need to loose f!#$ing weight like no shit oml--

i wish i had a friend whose like similar to me not looks but like personality or watever and i could like talk to them and like just go out for a cup of coffee and chill.. and i can trust them and but i cant seem to find one-- thats just in my imagination. sadlife. thats why im looking forward to uni cause maybe that friend will come :D

ahha... i have no idea what ive been saying but if you know me, my thoughts change like 24/7 im only typing what i think at this specific moment cause im so friggen bored. l0l

Hotpot woop!

Yesterday my friend hosted a steam boat dinner at his house followed by a mocha cheesecake for dessert! It was the highlight of my term 2 since I've been so legit antisocial. We ate for like an hour then cause one of a friend had to go church so we paused eating and played group games! It was so hilarious and we just all had a FUUNN as time, we played the watermelon game, no teeth game(can't show your teeth at all), silent game(can't speak one word), Chinese whispers with like 5 different languages LOL (English, Cantonese, Korean, Thai and Vietnamese) and then we played mafia and I was the first one to be out cause everyone voted me as the murderer-_- I was like totally lost and in denial hahahahhaha!!! it was soooooo fun then my friend came back from church and we carried on eating and talking and like asking the most retarded and stupid questions bahahahaha "would you rather be a table or an lamp" LOL ikr WTF. I asked that LOLOL. Anyway then some people left and only like 6 of us talked about first impressions and stuff till like 3am. Yes 3am and I called and begged and bribed my brother to open the door for me when I get home and he was like "fuck off" SADLIFE. But yeah when I got home I stayed outside my house for like 5minutes, spam texting my brother to open the fucking door-_- yea I have such a nice brother aye gois. Anyway it was a great day! It was reaaaaally fun:D