Decision.

So as you all know, i am banned from LoL FOR THE 4TH TIME. and this time its up to the 9th of December when im in CHINA == whats the point. omfg this sucks.
But in a way its like trying to say Judy go back to your drama life, gaming is not for you. SO i have decided to stop gaming and start going back to my old life where its drama and being sad and forever alone. I thought gaming would help me step out of misery but now it seems like its not working, so screw me. i should just dig a hole and die :D

HAHA ok todays verse is.............

Psalm 16:5 "Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure."

I have a story behind this verse, and that was actually the verse that made me become a real christian which was like few years ago haha.
I was watching T.V one day and i lost the remote control. FUNNY HAHAHA HAPPENS TO EVERYONE but i couldnt find it like legit i like chucked all the pillows up and i went into the sofa and i just literally went through any gap i could see, not just the ones i could see even the ones i cant.. JUST EVERYWHERE LIKE NO SHIT and then i was like OMG THAT VERSE (i forgot who told me this verse but yea) so i was repeating that verse to myself numerous of times, in chinese and english and then i lifted up that cushion and it was right there. I saw it and i was like . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I SWEAR TO MY SOUL I HAVE LOOKED HERE BEFORE LIKE I SWEAR ON MY LIFE I SWEAR ON ANYTHING I HAVE LOOKED HERE ALREADY WTH AND ITS LIKE lying there LIKE WTH. I was freken shocked like i was speechless and then from then on whenever i lose stuff i read that verse out to myself like 100 times and its just there, like its right in your face. Its amazing, im not trying to say use this verse when you lose something, and no, dont use Gods word when you only need him for something.

OKAY BYE GUYSSSSSSS

Last hang out day (?)

HEYYYYSS! So today i woke up really tired because i didnt have a really good sleep last night, i went to bed at 1130 with sadness because its like when you try your best to catch up with people because your leaving and you just want photos and like memories, people seem to bail on you and its like they dont care but they always be like omg dont leave etc etc. Hello, im a really realistic person, those dont hit me lol. Oh yea even though they bailed, i had other friends which i consider good friends here now because they lightened my day.

SO what did i do today... I went to church in the morning and then waited for Josh to take me to mission heights to meet my friends, on the way i went to buy ice cream hehehe and then we had a talk on the car. He was like what time you leaving? ill send you off and im like oh,, nah dont need to send me off anymore lol. (because ive previously asked) and hes like why? ----- will come anyway and im like lol no point if you dont really care, and plus its not like im not coming back ha. and hes like oh okay..
That talk just got me cause i know how my other friend felt when he left too and when people just kept bailing so i felt even bad. But you start to see what the word 'care' actually mean aye.
Anyway, after i got to mission heights i met my friends and made a new friend :D and then we went to friends house, bummed around abit and then went to botany to watch a movie and eat, i watched skyfall today! it was sooooo gooooood omg so cooooool but yea i wanted to take a photo with them but couldnt find a good time to ask, damn. BUT algoods ill see them next year :D ended pretty good even though the weather was shit. Btw the person who bailed, your lucky the weather was shit today aye otherwise i guess ill be pretty ticked off not able to go beach.

okay well NO PHOTOS T_T why?

BECAUSE NO PHONE OMFG. okay well, im gonna start ending my blogs with a bible verse from now on. TODAYS ONE IS............

Romans 12:21 "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

After exams BBQ!

Friday 30th was FINALLY the event ive been waiting for since like 3 weeks ago omg. OK so..

I txted kenneth the day before the event and i said can i come at like 3:30 or later to help you prepare and he was like do you have a life? and i was like no i dont have a life and so he was like come at 4:47 dont be late or early so i was like okay then. and then after a while hes like come at 4:30 so i was like hahaha okay.

The next day i woke up, went yumcha and then sylvia park for abit then went to kenneths house at 4:20, on my way i went to buy ice cream cause it was so hot, it was 4:28 that time and i was like oh shit im gonna be late, so i told my mom to drive faster and i got to kenneths house at like 4:37, he opened the door, checked his phone, and was like wait, its not 4:47 *closes door* and i was like HAHA OKAY THEN ILL JUST WAIT and then like few seconds later he was like HAHA jokes. I walked in his house and he showed me all the food and stuff and im like so what do i do? and hes like nothing HAHAH we prepared everything already and i was like ... so... i came early for nothing and hes like pretty much and i was like == but anyway some people came at like 5:30 and then blahblahblah everyone started coming and we started cooking, THANKS CHARLES FOR COOKING UNBURNT MEAT, just cause i burnt the sausages-- BUT I CAN COOK OKAY== anyway we had like so much food.. sadly i couldnt take heaps of photos cause MY PHONE== omg.
After the food and eating and stuff, some people played mafia and the others were singing kareoke, it was like a fun asssss night and the food were so goooood too. I slept over at kenneths with few other people too after most people left we had white chocolate fondue and like 1.. haha .. YOLO. and we stayed up till 5. kenneth, aimee and kelvin were playing naruto, me and sunny started sleeping, then kenneth couldnt sleep cause it was so hot and stuffy but yea i managed to sleep well LOL.
The next morning which was TODAY, we all woke up and then we were talking about how people slept, omg it was so funny HAHAHA and then Charles made us food and then we like bummed around from downstairs to upstairs back down to the backyard then into the living room then back out to the backyard :P. me sunny and teresa left at like 5 ish and i walked home in the freaking hot as weather and then went to eat dinner at that star seafood restaurant near botany, and omg that haunted house went on fire o.o and it was so intense, well pretty much my days hehehe.
GONNA upload photos sooooonnnnnn,-.-

EXAMS OVER.

OMG i finially finished all my exams. BUT the worst thing happened to my LAST EXAM i was like wtf. why is this happening today==. Okay so, i went to school at like 920 and i handed my administration slip and the next thing is WHERE IS MY ID CARD. and the examiner was like sorry i cant let you in, i was like k. and i GAPPED to the office, i felt like i ran like theres no tomorrow, but then the office lady said 'Oh go to G2 the teacher is there' and i was like ......... WHERE THE FUCK IS G2 so i ran back down to the block where my original exam class was and i went around the block like 3 times i was like omfg please tell me this isnt happening and then after like 5 minutes i f'ound G2 and i was like MISS I NEED ID CARD and then she was like okay $1 and i gave her a 20 note LOL and then i ran back to my class and LUCKILY it hasnt started i was like freken hot as and i was so tired cause i stayed up till like 1.30 last minute cramming last night== BUT ANYWAY the exam went alright HA.
SOOO since my exam has finished i feel so happy and light, i dont feel stress anymore just that i need to start resting properly and then PLAY PLAY PLAY before i leave this poohole {: meheehhehehehehe

OKAY have fun for the rest who still has exams HEHE BYEEE

Encouraging?

HEYYYYY, well today i went to church in the morning and this pastor was talking about "Standing up from where you fell" for the sermon. He shared a stories which i particularly kept in mind, so im gonna share it!(mostly pointed to people who are sad atm :P or going through some crap)

The first story is about a boy who was in despair, so he walked to a water fountain. Originally a water fountain is suppose to be something very pretty and fun but because of his emotional state, the water fountain made him felt even sad because he sees no matter how high the water shoots up, it still falls back down onto the ground, just like himself. So he walked off and lay down on the grass, he looked up to the sky and saw how beautiful the clouds were. Where do the clouds come from? The sun shines onto the water and so it evaporates and turns into clouds.
Okay, i dont think the story makes sense but yea, you guys get the point LOL. Basically it means sometimes no matter how hard we try we always fall back down but if we ask for help and pray to God, he will shine his light upon us and lift us back up just like how the water turns into clouds :D
im done sharing.

I dont know why, but recently ive always been sad and tired.. probably cause of exams but not all. But anyway i apologize if i randomly yell at my friends or something but its cause im really frustrated these days(dont know why). So yea, after listening to the sermon today i felt better annndddddd my last exam is on Tuesday so ill probably go back to normal hahahaha:D

okay BYE .

Just kidding, have a nice holiday guys :)

before my studying.

Okay, Today was the last hang i had before the exams zzzz i havent been studying... Im such a last minute person like no shit omg--. well yea i hanged out with... THE USUAL GROUP (Kenneth, Kelvin, Aimee, Charles, Sunny, Teresa), and is also my fav group and probably my only group that would last forever xoxo LOL jk. but yea i think the 'family group' is one of my most closest group cause we share pretty much about everything because we are so close and we trust each other so much and we know what kind of person each other are and most importantly we dont backstabb them like some groups do, not saying anything. But yea this group always make me feel legitimately happy when im in the most shittiest mood, like i have in the past week sigh.... dont need to question, its just the usual+ more. This group means quite alot to me even though i know im quite embarrassing for them sometimes cause im so LOUD AHAHAHHAHAHAHA im sorry guys, i just forget where we are sometimes when im so hypo.
SO we went to town at like 5ishhhh(?) and we went to The Apigo??! i forgot the name, the outside looks dodgy but the inside is like Whoaaa, the atmosphere is so good for couples o.o and like dmc talks. We ordered Green Tea Fondue, yes it might sound weird but OMG ITS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOD seriously its like so nice and we played poker .. i was so lost in the game but i kinda know how to play, it was funny though and then we slowly started having dmc's like always ~~. By the time we finished it was like 7? and Sunny left for her family dinner so then we went to Hansan this Vietnamese restaurant which then Teresa joined us there, it was sooo nice. Ima go there often, cause there was a few good looking waiters there LOL im such a freak. Anyway, i didnt really feel satisfied cause i wanted dessert so kenneth said lets go this place around high street?? and so we ordered a platter(4 scoops of icecream) and honey toast thing with ice cream it was soooo goooooooooooood. Kenneth, Kelvin and Charles were like going crazy with taking photos LOL and me, Aimee and Teresa was taking photos too and then after long laughs and desserts, Teresa took me home. :) (PHOTOS SOON, LOL as you guys know, my iphone is gone so i have to wait for others to upload the photos t_t I MISS MY PHONE i have to wait 2 months. fml.)

WHAT A LONG RELAXING BEAUTIFUL DAY in a rainy retarded gloomy day.
Im gonna start studying next week for exams need to get atleast ATLEAST a merit endorsement sigh... excellence endorsement is like impossible cause ive been mucking around the whole year -.- im legit study guys. AFTER EXAMS I HAVE A WEEK TO PLAY(cause my mom postponed my ticket to 4th December) SO WHOEVER WANTS TO HANG, LEGGO G.

im not gonna say goodluck cause theres no luck in exams, im gonna say: I HOPE YOU GUYS WALK OUT WITH WHAT YOU GUYS HAVE PUT IN FOR YOUR EXAMS. GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND STUDYYYYYYYYYYYY remember NCEA lvl 1,2,3 is only once in your life but hanging out, getting drunk and blahblah can be 100000 times in your life. Dont YOLO your life for one party.
JOKES. ITS YOUR LIFE DO WHAT YOU WANT, HAHAHAHHAHA. BYE :DDDDD

Honey toast thing from iStorm!

Holidays.

The first week of my holidays has been rather interesting. The first few days were fucked but it got better after on like the last 2 days. The first day pissed me off so bad honestly I thought to myself 'wow first day of holidays and the start to October wtf.' it was so Tiring and things just didn't go well, I mean hey, it's the holidays your suppose to have fun? Maybe YOU don't think that ways but it's my life? I make plans for myself that I think is suitable for me. Lol. But at least somethings lightened those days up eg food. And maybe talking to funny friends hahaha. And yea I admit I'm a hypocrite, I started playing LoL, for those unknown its league of legends. Mainly because I have nothing to do and it's actually quite fun , I think I know why people play it so much. But hey I don't see the reason talking about it day to night. Yes it's fun but you don't need to talk about it like there's no tomorrow. Anyway.. Oh and the last 2 days were my highlights of the week because on Saturday I went shopping with my mommy hehe bought some new clothes and went nightmarket with my bubba and Richard, THE CHURROS WAS SO GOOD. And then went to pool cause a fag told me to but made me wait TWENTY MINUTES, and I never wait for people. How nice am I. Then on Sunday i went town to watch loopers it's good movie, and ate food.. LOL. Anyway yea those were pretty much what meant 'holiday' to me. Here's some photos hehe.

me eating pad thai ~

with retard 

on sunday ready to go out!